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Key takeaways from Biden’s news conference: Insistence on staying in the race and flubbed names

President Joe Biden held a news conference Thursday evening, the key event in a monumental week for his campaign as he fends off calls for him to step aside as the party’s presumptive nominee. His big moment comes on the last day of the NATO summit. (AP Video Production by Ao Gao)


President Joe Biden sounded a defiant tone at a news conference Thursday evening, the key event in a monumental week for his campaign as he fends off calls for him to step aside as the party’s presumptive nominee.


In announcing a compact that would bring together NATO countries to support Ukraine, President Joe Biden referred to the nation’s leader Volodymyr Zelenskyy as “President Putin.”


President Joe Biden’s news conference is projected onto a screen inside the media center on the final day of the NATO Summit in Washington, Thursday, July 11, 2024. (Photo/Pablo Martinez Monsivais)

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President Joe Biden speaks at a news conference Thursday July 11, 2024, on the final day of the NATO summit in Washington. (AP Photo/Jacquelyn Martin)

President Joe Biden clears his throat as he speaks at a news conference Thursday July 11, 2024, on the final day of the NATO summit in Washington. (AP Photo/Jacquelyn Martin)

President Joe Biden speaks at a news conference following the NATO Summit in Washington, Thursday, July 11, 2024. (AP Photo/Matt Rourke)

President Joe Biden speaks at a news conference following the NATO Summit in Washington, Thursday, July 11, 2024. (AP Photo/Susan Walsh)

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WASHINGTON (AP) — Joe Biden faced a test Thursday that he had avoided so far this year — a solo news conference with questions from the White House press corps.

The news conference was meant to reassure a disheartened group of Democratic lawmakers, allies and persuadable voters in this year’s election that Biden still has the strength and stamina to be president. Biden has tried to defend his feeble and tongue-tied performance in the June 27 debate against Republican Donald Trump as an outlier rather than evidence that at 81 he lacks the vigor and commanding presence that the public expects from the commander in chief.

He made at least two notable flubs, referring at an event beforehand to Ukrainian President Volodymyr Zelenskyy as “President Putin” and then calling Kamala Harris “Vice President Trump” when asked about her by a reporter. But he also gave detailed responses about his work to preserve NATO and his plans for a second term. And he insisted he’s not leaving the race even as a growing number of Democratic lawmakers ask him to step aside.

Here are some highlights from the press conference:


AP AUDIO: Key takeaways from Biden’s news conference: Insistence on staying in the race and flubbed names

In remarks, President Biden mistakenly switches the Ukrainian and Russian presidents.

He bungled key names — and remained defiant

Perhaps Biden’s biggest slip-up in the press conference came early on when he referred to Vice President Kamala Harris as “Vice President Trump,” in saying he picked her because he believed she could beat Trump.

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Even before the news conference, Biden had bungled an important name at the NATO summit and instantly lowered expectations for his performance.

“Ladies and gentlemen, President Putin,” Biden said as he was introducing Ukrainian President President Volodymyr Zelenskyy, who is most definitely not Russian President Vladimir Putin. The gaffe immediately prompted gasps, as Biden caught himself and said to Zelenskyy: “President Putin? You’re going to beat President Putin.”

But he was defiant when a reporter brought up his reference to “Vice President Trump” and noted the presumptive Republican nominee’s campaign was already promoting the slip-up. “Listen to him,” he said, before walking off the stage.

One House Democrat, Rep. Jim Himes of Connecticut, issued a statement minutes later calling on the president to withdraw.

He insisted, ‘I’ve got to finish this job’

It’s a delicate dance between the president and vice president, with many Democrats openly pining for Harris to replace Biden on the ticket. Biden didn’t acknowledge that tension, but only brought Harris up in response to pointed questions about whether he believed she had the capability to replace him.

“I wouldn’t have picked her unless I thought she was qualified to be president,” Biden said, citing Harris’ resume from prosecutor to the U.S. Senate.

But in response to a later question he acknowledged he’d moved on from his 2020 campaign promise to be a “bridge” to a new generation of Democrats. “What changed was the gravity of the situation I inherited,” he said, without a word about his vice president.

Repeatedly, he said, “I’ve got to finish this job.”

The press conference ended with Biden being asked directly whether he’d step down for Harris if he saw polling showing she had a better chance of beating Trump. “No, unless they come back and said there’s no way you can win,” Biden responded. Then he added, in a stage whisper, “No poll’s saying that.”

He argued he’s delivered results over rhetoric


Biden tried to make the case that what he’s doing matters more than how he talks about it.

He praised the just finished NATO summit as elevating America’s standing. “Have you ever seen a more successful conference?” Biden said to a group of reporters who often only got to see the conference during prepared remarks.

He drilled down on how inflation has eased from its 2022 peak as he reeled off stats such as the creation of 800,000 manufacturing jobs under his watch, saying that world leaders would want to trade their own economies for what United States has. He also said he would cap how much rent could grow for tenants of landlords who are part of a tax-credit program for low-income housing.

It’s the same pitch Biden has made in stump speeches without necessarily doing much to move his own popularity. His team believes it will sink in if repeated constantly.

He brought up his work on NATO


Biden kicked off the press conference by talking at length about NATO and its value to the United States — one of his strongest political issues against Trump, who has been openly skeptical of the alliance and once suggested he’d encourage Russia to attack NATO members whom he considered delinquent.

Biden tied himself to an American tradition stretching “from Truman to Reagan to me” of defending NATO. “Every American must ask herself or himself, is the world safer with NATO?” he asked.

Later, to assure a European journalist asking about governments on that continent worrying Trump could win, Biden launched into a detailed recounting of how he helped shepherd Finland into the alliance. After that, he went into detail about how to push back against China for supporting Russia during its war against Ukraine and contended he will continue to be able to deal with Putin and Chinese President Xi Jinping.

Overall, Biden spoke forcefully and fluently about foreign policy, one of his favorite subjects. But the news conference’s focus wasn’t really foreign policy, it was reassuring Democrats and the world that Biden is still able to be president and beat Trump.

That shows how even Biden’s strengths are being overshadowed by questions about his capabilities.

When possible, he went back to the stump speech


Every politician has a stock set of lines. And whenever Biden could, he went back to his favorite talking points. It was a way to answer the question without necessarily needing to say anything spontaneous or new.

He went after trickle-down economics, borrowing a line about his father never benefiting much from tax cuts aimed at the wealthy (“I don’t remember much trickling down to his kitchen table”). He hailed Delaware for leading the country in corporations. He said he’s the “most pro-union labor president in history.” He explained his decision to run for a second term with a variation on his “finish the job” catchphrase. He went into his standard spiel about computer chips.

With no time limit on his answers like he faced at the debate, Biden went on for several minutes at a time telling stories about his interactions with foreign leaders and making the case for his reelection.

He answered questions in detail — unlike at the debate


There were few fireworks in Biden’s answers -- with the highly anticipated event at times coming across as more of a think tank lecture than an effort to grab voters’ attention. He went into granular detail on geopolitics and rattled off numbers — asking at one moment, though, to not be held to the precise figure.

While it didn’t erase the stumbles and blank stares from the debate, it showed that he could engage with reporters’ questions on a range of issues without losing focus.

There was still regular coughing and throat clearing. And at times he lowered his voice to a hoarse whisper that evoked the rasp of his voice on debate night.

Overall, his presentation was a reminder that people are focused on him now with an almost clinical eye toward possible slip-ups and mistakes, the kind of pressure that is unlikely to go away for as long as Biden insists he’ll stay in the race.

Riccardi reported from Denver.


Biden thought he had it under control. Then it got worse.

The inside story of the Biden team’s failure over nine days to contain the crisis from his debate with Trump.

President Biden’s top aides awoke after debate night with a plan to contain the damage: A raucous North Carolina crowd, a message of resilience, a demonstration of vibrancy.

For the first time, Biden would admit what the world had watched for years. “I don’t walk as easy as I used to. I don’t speak as smoothly as I used to,” he rehearsed at the Westin Raleigh-Durham Airport with Mike Donilon, his message guru. “But I know what I do know … I know how to do this job.”

It was a comeback tale, based on the notion of a single bad night. “When you get knocked down, you get back up!” Biden declared , nailing the lines off a teleprompter, at full volume, to cheers. His next campaign ad was set.

But the crisis that may yet topple his candidacy would only get worse.

The speech showcased the promised candidate, but also reinforced the inconsistency. Donors, strategists, elected leaders and even some of his own advisers privately said they no longer knew what they thought they knew about Biden. Polls show that he is losing to Donald Trump , a man who almost never led polling averages until this cycle. The president needed a referendum on his predecessor. But suddenly the race was about Biden. Could he really do the job?

Rather than take those concerns head-on, Biden followed the speech and rally by retreating from public view — a series of private fundraisers awkwardly using his teleprompter, a retreat with his family to take pictures with photographer Annie Leibovitz, short scripted addresses at the White House — just 32 minutes of combined public comments over five days, none of it off the cuff.

Sentiment on Capitol Hill soured, donors organized against him and some public polls showed significant erosion. Independent Democratic strategists circulated plans to build up Vice President Harris. His own advisers and staff began to speak out, alarmed by what one called the “deafening silence.” Then began the drip-drip of elected and former leaders asking him to step aside.

By midweek, nothing had been contained — a classic snowball effect. Each new effort only highlighted how much more he needed to do. Belatedly, Biden declared confidence in himself, dismissed the polls, vowed to do more.

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“I would have been more aggressive if I was them,” said Al Sharpton, an ally who has been telling others to stick with Biden. “They needed to have him out earlier, to show there was nothing. The White House seemed surprised at the reaction. They should have fired right back. You don’t give your enemies the chance to set your narrative. They let their enemies set the narrative.”

This story, about one of the most consequential weeks of modern presidential politics, is based on interviews with more than three dozen aides, advisers, lawmakers, governors and other Biden allies, most of whom spoke on the condition of anonymity to describe private conversations. Together they paint a picture of the Biden team’s failure over the past nine days to contain a crisis that is tarnishing his legacy and threatens his presidency.

“This Democratic circular firing squad will continue, but it will also end,” said Dmitri Mehlhorn, a donor adviser to LinkedIn co-founder Reid Hoffman who has been working furiously to rally support for Biden’s continued candidacy. “The question is: Does it end in a couple weeks, which is manageable, or does it end in a couple months, which will be a disaster. It’s a self-inflicted wound, and the question is: Do we keep shooting ourselves?”

One bad night

Joe Biden showed up late to the biggest test of his 54-year career. He told aides he didn’t need the CNN studio tour to show him the camera angles and lights. He had done debates for decades. They insisted anyway.

The motorcade was set to depart the Atlanta Hyatt Regency at 8 p.m., with reporters frantically rushed from dinner into vans. But Biden didn’t leave until 27 minutes later, arriving at the studio with less than 30 minutes to spare. He never learned where to look on the split screen when his opponent spoke.

About 50 million Americans watched him lose his train of thought at times . Democrats watched him miss easy openings to attack Trump, while landing some others. When Trump was speaking, he sometimes looked confused. His voice was quiet and raspy.

Biden said later he was tired from international travel 11 days earlier. Aides took responsibility for the pale makeup. He had a cold. He had prepared with too much detail. He wasn’t really sure.

One top Biden supporter, who screamed at his television during the event, saw something else. This was a version of the private, frail Biden who had shown up before in small meet-and-greets and mansion fundraisers. “When you are talking to him, it feels like you are talking to grandpa because of his age,” the person said. “He is clear, but he is grandpa clear.”

For years, top supporters had been wary of his candidacy, but they respected him too much to intervene. They were proud of his accomplishments. Incumbents tend to be reelected. Biden beat Trump before. They pushed aside the obvious.

None of it was a state secret. Biden, 81, had been losing his train of thought in public for years as president. His voice, once bombastic, meandered to mumble. The “fingertip politician” energy of the Barack Obama years had gone stiff and wooden. It was getting worse.

But Biden and his top aides had made these supporters a deal, sometimes explicitly. He would show up, they promised, for a few big moments to put the doubters to rest — at the State of the Union, the debates, his nominating convention, some major campaign rallies.

Biden was so confident, he called for a June debate quoting Clint Eastwood — “Make my day, pal,” he told Trump. His campaign started selling cans of water called “Dark Brandon’s Secret Sauce.” The tough talk concealed a remarkably brittle blueprint for, in the words of his campaign, saving American democracy, slowing global warming and preventing World War III.

The mayor of Atlanta, the chairman of the Democratic Party and top Democratic donors gathered at Cooks and Soldiers, a restaurant a few miles from the CNN studios, to watch the debate. They could see right away what was happening. “Sadness” was how one person described the gathering.

After the debate, Trump was thinking about going to the spin room, but decided against it because Biden did so poorly. “No one was more shocked at Biden’s performance than Donald Trump,” said one adviser, ready to twist the knife. Afterward, Trump told aides that he couldn’t even look at Biden.

Something had been unlocked, the unspoken spoken. Everything was now under a microscope. At a $100 million East Hampton mansion two days later, Biden described a French cemetery at Normandy as Italian. Donors were stunned he spoke so briefly — about six minutes — and left without taking questions.

In New Jersey, at the governor’s private villa overlooking the Navesink River, he spoke so softly that a crowd of 50 craned their heads to hear him speak from a teleprompter. Over dinner that night, participants reported a detailed discussion of policy, though Biden was hard to hear and sometimes struggled to complete his thoughts.

At least 16 senior White House and campaign officials prepped him for the debate over six days at Camp David, the presidential retreat in Maryland. When he returned Sunday to see his family and take photographs, he and his wife were unstaffed as usual, save a single top aide for each.

Some had gone to second homes, some back to Delaware or to see their own families. This was a team that had seen a crisis like this before. They thought they had a handle on it, with memos calling for calm and internal polling showing little change after the debate. The ad featuring the North Carolina rally was cut and debuted on MSNBC’s “Morning Joe.”

But inside, new cracks appeared. Someone began talking to reporters about how the president had been ill-served by some of his top aides in debate prep, prompting Biden to make calls of reassurance to staff. There were whispers about family dissent, which members of the family denied. It was a distraction at a crucial time.

“That was un-Biden behavior,” said a top adviser later in the week. “That is generally not the way this operation has handled these things.”

It took days for the team to realize how bad the damage was inside the party. Biden spoke fine from a teleprompter Monday, when he denounced the Supreme Court’s ruling on presidential immunity . This was not a polling crisis. It was a political one. The calls were literally coming from inside the House.

“Monday is the day this turned — this has turned,” said one Democratic member of Congress. “Everyone lost confidence by Monday. I started hearing from donors, members, everyone on Monday. It was only getting worse.”

It took until Tuesday afternoon for Biden to start contacting Democratic leaders. The only outreach some rank-and-file members received was a Wednesday polling update from Hillary Beard, the Biden campaign’s House members director. She wrote that any drop in the polls was “a moment in time, not a reshaping of the race.” Campaign volunteer sign-ups had jumped threefold. Ninety-five percent of recent donations came in under $200.

“The talking points suck, totally suck,” the member added. “They did a terrible job after the debate. Terrible.”

Former House speaker Nancy Pelosi (D-Calif.), the best vote counter of her generation, knew right away. “I think it’s a legitimate question to say, ‘Is this an episode or is this a condition?’” she said Tuesday, opening the floodgates. Rep. James E. Clyburn (D-S.C.) called for Biden to do town halls. Sen. Sheldon Whitehouse (D-R.I.) said people need to know that Biden and his team “are being candid with us.”

A Wednesday meeting with Democratic governors, demanded by the governors themselves, surfaced more concern. All still publicly supported him, some effusively. But the governors of Maine and New Mexico said their states could be competitive in the presidential race. Colorado Gov. Jared Polis told Biden that people had come to him with a message: Tell Biden to drop out.

Vice President Harris, once an afterthought and a punchline in the party, was enjoying a swell of support, as most party leaders concluded she was the only viable alternative — the only candidate who could claim incumbency and spend the money Biden raised.

In the governor’s meeting she found her voice, demanding everyone get behind Biden. “This is about our f---ing democracy,” she declared, a prosecutor once again.

Doubling down

There is no disagreement among allies about what Biden should do next to stay in the race.

“To me this is just very straightforward. There is a very simple path to this. You just have to go out and do it. If you can’t do it, that is a different thing,” said Stuart Stevens, the lead consultant for Mitt Romney’s 2012 White House bid, who now supports Biden and wants him to stay in the race. “You do town halls and interviews, you do a 72-hour blitz and midnight rally that leaves reporters calling their parents and editors to say, ‘I can’t do this anymore.’”

But that sort of endurance was never part of the Biden campaign plan. He doesn’t talk or walk like before. He needs more sleep, new shoes, a shorter staircase on Air Force One. In his first press interview since the debate, with a radio station Wednesday in Pennsylvania, his bungled words — nothing new, folks — now circulated like evidence.

Boasting about choosing the first Black vice president, he said “the first Black woman to serve with a Black president.” He tried to describe himself as the first Catholic to win statewide in Delaware. “I’m the first president to get elected statewide in the state of Delaware,” he said instead.

Inside the White House and the campaign, the rank-and-file tried to keep their heads down. They know how to work hard, with the discipline of a corporate consulting firm. One person described it as a “hold-the-line and throw punches” culture, proud to have overcome party skeptics many times before. But dismay crept out. Had they been misled by the senior staff about his fitness? Campaign pollsters didn’t attend the senior staff meetings with the president. Was anyone giving it to him straight?

A rally Friday in Madison, Wis., showed that the North Carolina speech was no aberration. He could still thunder at a teleprompter. But when he sat for a 22-minute interview with skeptical ABC News anchor George Stephanopoulos, the difference reappeared. Biden has a credible claim to being in command, still making the decisions that matter, understanding the stakes. He has run the country through a time of historic tumult. But he is not the candidate who was part of winning presidential elections three times before.

Talking about how he prepared for the debate, he trailed off again, just like he did before Trump. He said, “I get quoted. The New York Times had me down, at 10 points before the debate, nine now, or whatever the hell it is. The fact of the matter is, what I looked at is, that he also lied 28 times.” (The Times poll showed Trump’s national lead growing from six to nine points among registered voters after the debate.)

At one point, Stephanopoulos asked if he had watched the debate afterward. The president paused and then said, “I don’t think I did. No.”

Billionaire donors, for all their swagger, don’t get to order a president around. But a cruel conventional wisdom is setting in. “I’d estimate that for every 10 people who think he should exit, one thinks he should stay,” said one donor adviser. The Biden campaign counters that this week was the best grass-roots fundraising start of any month during this campaign.

The campaign, meanwhile, has not been able to answer the central question of their detractors. What is the empirical case for Biden winning when 7 in 10 voters don’t think he is up for the job and Trump is sitting on hundreds of millions of dollars to make him look worse than he is? How do you stage a referendum on Trump when another Democrat calls for Biden to drop out every day?

“President Biden is taking his popular vision to move this country forward to the American people and the voters who will decide this election,” Biden campaign spokesman Kevin Munoz said in a statement. “Trump is barely campaigning, and every day whether he’s golfing or getting in fights with himself online, he’s forced to defend his toxic, losing Project 2025 agenda. Our view is that it is the contrast and binary choice that will matter and determine victory this November.”

The House returns to Washington on Monday, and Sen. Mark R. Warner (D-Va.) is looking to rally fellow senators to call for a change . Multiple people publicly vouching for Biden, at the behest of the White House and campaign, privately say there’s no path.

His family is still with him. The race is still single digits. And Biden remains hopeful. As he likes to say, America can do anything if its people work together — “There’s not a single thing we can’t do.”

But in private, people around him have detected some shift. He admits the danger now, can sound more somber at times.

One person who spoke to him over the Fourth of July holiday said, “I think he is focused on recovering, but I personally think he’s still in the denial phase of grief.”

Ashley Parker contributed to this report.

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Ex-Secret Service special agents explain why countersniper who saved Trump's life may have lost crucial seconds

  • Trump's life was saved by a Secret Service countersniper assigned to Saturday's detail.
  • But the shooter still managed to kill one rallygoer and injure two others before he was taken out.
  • Experts said heat, staffing, and a focus on a nearby tree line may have cost crucial seconds.

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The Secret Service countersniper who narrowly saved the life of former President Donald Trump may have lost crucial seconds because of factors including the extreme heat, a lack of antisniper backup, and a likely focus on a nearby tree line, a former special agent told Business Insider.

"This countersniper made an amazingly quick decision and clearly saved Trump's life," Bill Pickle, the former special agent in charge of Al Gore's vice-presidential Secret Service detail, said.

"Our guys are the best shots in the world. That's what they do," Pickle said.

"And within a second of the moment this kid opened fire, the CS guy shot him," he said, using Secret Service shorthand to refer to the countersniper deployed at Saturday night's rally in Butler, Pennsylvania.

"But someone will blame that CS and the spotter and say, 'If only he had been two seconds faster in spotting the shooter,'" the former special agent said.

"The real question may be: If there were more antisniper eyes on that building, could this have all been avoided?" he added.

How did the countersniper team not see the shooting suspect sooner?

Pickle said one area of focus for investigators would be how the shooter managed to get on top of the building without authorities taking notice.

"The other question is: Why wasn't this roof secured, and were there agents or law enforcement in there checking IDs?" he added.

"How did this kid figure out a way to get out on the rooftop and slither across that rooftop?" Pickle said. "He low-crawled across the roof on his hands and knees, and he pushed the weapon ahead of him just like in the military."

But even if they see a shooting suspect quicker, countersnipers may not always have the ability to act immediately when they spot a threat, Anthony Cangelosi, a former special agent who directed the Secret Service's technical-security advances for presidential candidates, said.

"You either have to make a decision: 'Do I take a shot? Or do I not take a shot?'" Cangelosi told BI.

"What if you find out, 'Oh, I just killed a 20-year-old kid who loves the protectee, and he couldn't get in the venue, and he just wanted to get up on that roof?' No one wants to be in that position," Cangelosi said.

Cangelosi said the Secret Service team at the event should have a "site plan" that would include a layout of the area and the surrounding buildings.

The would-be assassin fired at least three rounds from a rooftop 150 yards from where Trump was speaking. He killed one rallygoer and critically injured two others before being shot dead by a yet-to-be-identified Secret Service countersniper who was positioned on another rooftop.

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One bullet grazed Trump's right ear , bloodying his face.

"This kid, at 150 yards, made a great shot," Pickle said Sunday of the would-be assassin, his voice grim. "I don't know the specifics of whether he used optics, meaning a scope on his rifle," he told BI.

"But even with optics, it takes somebody with training to aim at somebody's head from 150 yards away and you actually hit the edge of the head," he said.

"That's not a lucky shot," he added. "That's a guy who actually shot before."

The FBI identified the shooter as Thomas Matthew Crooks , 20, of Bethel Park, Pennsylvania. The FBI said it was still investigating a motive.

But for now, it's clear that at least three things may have factored into the several-second delay between when Crooks was seen crawling onto the roof and when the CS team saw and shot him, Pickle said.

The decision on how many antisnipers to deploy may prove the most critical factor, he said.

"Someone made a decision that that number of countersnipers was sufficient," he said. "And obviously, in hindsight, they were wrong because there was a kid who was able to get up there on that rooftop and pull the trigger three times at least."

How many CS teams were deployed?

Staffing decisions would have been made at the Secret Service's headquarters in Washington, DC, based on whatever agency personnel on the ground recommended after a several-day investigation of the site, Pickle said.

"An advance team actually does a lengthy survey, where they look at everything and then recommend what they need," he said.

"But if they're stretched for resources, headquarters can say we can only get you one team out there. And that's not unusual — if you don't have it, you don't have it," Pickle said.

"It always boils down to resources," he said. "And if it's not a resource problem, and the money was there, then it's still an allocation-of-resources problem," he said — meaning someone underestimated the forces needed to keep Trump safe.

Regardless of how many snipers were present, the Secret Service typically has "360-degree coverage" of an event where a sitting or former president is speaking, Cangelosi said.

Another factor is the weather.

"The CS guys would probably say: 'We were up there for four hours in 100-degree heat, and if we had another team up here or drone support, this wouldn't have happened,'" Pickle said.

The team may also have been focusing on a nearby tree line, seeing it as the primary risk.

"You're looking at everything that would hide a potential assassin," Pickle said.

"The first assumption is that if I'm a bad guy, I'm going to hide. Human nature is such that I'm going to be scanning the rooftops to make sure they're empty, but then I'm going to be focusing on that tree line because you think the bad guy is going to be hidden," Pickle said.

"You don't think the bad guy is going to be out in the open," he said.

Interagency squabbles and intense public scrutiny are forthcoming

Once the would-be assassin opened fire, "everything that happened up there was textbook and the way it should have happened," Pickle said. The CS team returned fire, long-gun-toting counterassault agents in black jumpsuits and helmets rushed the stage, and business-suited agents at the rally platform hurried Trump offstage.

"But why wasn't he identified seconds sooner?" Pickle asked of the shooter.

"Was it caused by exhaustion from being on a 100-degree roof for four hours? Was the CS team watching the heavy foliage there, which arguably was the best place to hide?" he said.

"An open roof is not the best place to hide. If he climbed out onto an open rooftop, he was prepared to die," he added.

"The worst nightmare for the Secret Service has always been a lone gunman who hasn't been announcing his views publicly and is ready to die," he said.

Pickle said Saturday's attack would be dissected for years to come and "will be in the training syllabus forever."

"It's going to be a circular firing squad," Pickle said of the interagency finger-pointing and conspiracy theories that will play out as the attempted assassination is scrutinized by the FBI, Congress, and the press and public.

Cangelosi told BI that "a lot of people talk and things just travel" within the agency after an event of this magnitude.

"We all want answers, and we want them as quickly as possible, but it's going to take some time," Cangelosi said. "You know the Secret Service; they're professionals. Mistakes are made. They're going to remedy them."

Watch: How the Secret Service protected Trump after 'screwing up'

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Marlins, Rockies highlight 2024 MLB Draft Day 1 winners, losers

The 2024 MLB Draft kicked off on Sunday with plenty of intriguing takeaways from the first and second rounds.

Andrew Meyers

MLB Draft logo in the middle, Georgia's Charlie Condon, Florida's Jac Caglianone on either side. Miami Marlins and Arizona Diamondbacks logos in the top corners

The All-Star break for the 2024 season began Sunday with the first two rounds of the MLB Draft . 74 prospects had their names called and their lives changed forever as their dreams of playing professional baseball became reality.

Baseball is such an unpredictable sport, much more than others. There is no telling which of these players will turn into All-Stars and which will struggle in the minor leagues. Picking players in the MLB Draft is as close to a game of chance as anything in sport. Odds are there will be a few household names in this year's draft class, but they may not be what fans think.

College prospects dominated the first round and accounted for the first eight picks as teams opted for more experienced players. Travis Bazzana, somewhat surprisingly, was the first overall pick, becoming the first second baseman taken 1-1 in the MLB Draft thanks to the Cleveland Guardians.

That was one of the many talking points coming out of Day 1 of the 2024 MLB Draft . There were plenty of other shockers and head-scratchers along the way, but all in all, it was an exciting night for Major League Baseball and those in attendance in Fort Worth, Texas.

All 30 teams made a selection on Sunday but not every one of them will be successful. It's probably unfair to label some of these picks as “winners” and “losers” before they even begin their professional careers. Why not give them a little extra motivation?

Winner: Colorado Rockies

Winning has not been on the Rockies' radar much throughout the franchise's three-decade history. They made the playoffs five times in their first 31 years of existence and things aren’t looking too hot this year. Colorado is likely heading for its sixth consecutive losing season.

Maybe the 2024 MLB Draft can be a turning point for the Rockies franchise after Colorado used the third overall selection on Georgia star Charlie Condon. Seen as a possible candidate for the No. 1 pick, Condon slid down a few spots and fell into Colorado's lap as arguably the top prospect in the class.

There's no telling how well Condon's raw power will play at Coors Field. He launched 37 homers this spring and led NCAA Division I in several offensive categories. He has solid bat speed and the sound he makes on contact is consistent and loud.

Condon has been compared to Kris Bryant. It's easy to forget Bryant is on the Rockies , given he's only played 146 games since joining Colorado in 2022. Still, having Bryant take Condon under his wing will be beneficial for all parties.

Charlie Codon has the chance to be a star in Denver and could join the Rockies relatively soon.

Winner: Arizona Diamondbacks

Slade Caldwell is drafted by the Arizona Diamondbacks with the 29th pick during the first round of the MLB Draft at Cowtown Coliseum.

The Diamondbacks were among the busier teams on Sunday as one of three franchises with four picks in the first two rounds. Arizona had three of the first 35 selections and should be happy with the haul they got after the first day of the draft.

The D-backs went outfield-heavy in the first round, using the 29th and 31st overall picks on high school outfielder Slade Caldwell and Kentucky product Ryan Waldschmidt. Arizona has done well developing outfielders recently. Corbin Carroll won NL Rookie of the Year in 2023 while Jake McCarthy and Alek Thomas have contributed meaningful at-bats throughout their first few seasons.

Caldwell would be a higher pick if he were taller but his hitting abilities make up for his smaller frame. He provides great contact to all fields and is a plus runner on the basepaths. That speed helps him play an above-average center field, a position he should be able to stick at in the MLB.

Similarly, Waldschmidt is a contact hitter with good plate discipline. He shows off strength at times, hitting 28 home runs in three college seasons. Teams were wary about his health following a torn ACL in 2023 but he gained confidence throughout this past season and has the intangibles to succeed at the next level.

The Diamondbacks also selected Wisconsin high schooler JD Dix and took a chance on 17-year-old Puerto Rican catcher Ivan Luciano with the 64th pick. There is a bit of risk in some of Arizona's selections, but the upside of all four players could make this an important class of D-backs prospects .

Loser: Miami Marlins

There is always potential for a first-round pick in the teens to be hit or miss, especially in a draft class that boasts few stars like this year's. Sometimes teams go for an obvious reach though and the Marlins did just that with their initial pick.

Miami selected 19-year-old PJ Morlando, a left-handed hitting outfielder from Summerville High School in South Carolina. Morlando was a projected second-round pick after his stock dropped due to concerns about his power stroke. His swing in-game leaves something to be desired in the power department, something he'll need to improve if he wants to stick in the MLB.

The Marlins saved money by picking Morlando, but is it worth it if he doesn’t pan out? He needs to check a lot of boxes to do so.

Winner: Kansas City Royals

Florida utility Jac Caglianone (14) rounds third base after hitting a home run during the first inning of an NCAA baseball matchup at 121 Financial Ballpark in Jacksonville, Fla. Florida State defeated Florida 14-3.

Few teams have surprised people as much as the Royals have this season. Kansas City is firmly in the mix for a playoff spot in the American League and should finish with a winning record for the first time since 2015.

The Royals' farm system is thin but they added two premier prospects, Jac Caglianone and David Shields, to continue the rebuild. There is excitement with both picks, particularly Caglianone and his two-way potential.

The Royals will probably keep Caglianone off the mound, but his bat is good enough to make him a steal with the sixth pick. He brings unreal power from the left side of the plate with 68 home runs over the last two spring seasons. He also flipped his walk and strikeout numbers from 2023 to 2024, going from 17 walks and 58 strikeouts in the former to 58 walks and 26 strikeouts in the latter.

There's a lot to like about the 17-year-old Shields who was also a high school quarterback before giving up football last year. He has plenty of room for growth and possesses the ability to get the most out of himself.

Winner/Loser: Oakland Athletics/players the Athletics drafted

In their final year in Oakland, the Athletics put together a solid first day of the 2024 MLB Draft. Unfortunately, fans in the Bay Area won't get a chance to see these promising prospects as the franchise moves to Sacramento followed by a permanent stay in Las Vegas.

The A's came away with two power-hitting corner infielders with their first two picks, hoping to bring some fireworks to their relocations in the future. Slugging first baseman Nick Kurtz consistently drives balls in the air and uses every bit of his 6-foot-5 frame to reach all parts of the field with his power. He hit 61 home runs in three seasons at Wake Forest.

Tommy White needs no introduction to diehard baseball fans. The stocky third baseman burst onto the scene and set the NCAA Division I record for home runs by a freshman with 27 at North Carolina State in 2022. He then clubbed 24 more and led D-I in RBIs in 2023 as a member of the College World Series-winning LSU Tigers.

Although his hype declined this spring due in part to a nagging shoulder injury, White has the potential to stick in the heart of an MLB lineup. His power ability could get him to the A's sooner than later.

While fulfilling a dream and getting drafted by an MLB team has to be a wonderful feeling, it wouldn’t shock me if Kurtz or White had a few reservations about joining the Athletics organization . Nothing the franchise has done in recent years has indicated it's heading in the right direction and there's no guarantee fans will show up in Sacramento and Vegas. That doesn’t exactly sound like an ideal situation for a minor league prospect.

Loser: MLB marketing

MLB Commissioner Rob Manfred during the first round of the MLB Draft at Cowtown Coliseum.

Major League Baseball has tried to make its draft more of an entertainment showcase for television, similar to the NFL and NBA's version . This year's venue and in-person setting at Cowtown Coliseum made for an impressive backdrop to kick off MLB's midseason break.

While the presentation of the 2024 MLB Draft was done fairly well, the promotion of the event was once again poor for the standard that the world's most popular baseball league needs to meet.

Local broadcasts for teams barely mentioned the draft leading up to the event and national broadcasts lacked the viewership and consistency to get the word out to the vast majority. Having the draft air on two channels simultaneously (ESPN and MLB Network) is a fantastic idea and should boost viewership. However, numbers were down last year from 2022 and will likely be down again this year.

Major League Baseball has increased its efforts to promote the game but continues to miss the mark. More than enough casual fans missed the MLB Draft festivities to warrant a change in the league's marketing strategy.

Andrew Meyers is a sports writer covering the Phillies, MLB at-large, and NFL for ClutchPoints. A New Jersey native and Quinnipiac graduate, he is also a play-by-play broadcaster for college sports in the northeast. Andrew previously wrote at The Trentonian.

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Throat Clearing? Could be a Sign of Something Serious

Each of us has needed to clear our throat at some time or the other—whether we are making a presentation or feeling a tickle in the back of our throat. While not often serious, repetitive throat clearing could indicate other health problems. 

Breanne L. Schiffer, MD, MPH , assistant professor in the Department of Otolaryngology (Head and Neck) at University of Utah Health, says that by the time patients visit her office, they often have had an ongoing problem with throat clearing. 

“It has somehow become disruptive—whether it’s disruptive to the people around them or they get comments about it, or maybe they feel embarrassed by how frequently they are clearing their throat,” Schiffer says.

Often, a sensation in the back of the throat causes individuals to clear their throat. Some patients that Schiffer sees have had trauma to their throat caused by a surgical or sedation procedure where they were intubated or had a breathing tube in place. For others, it may have been a respiratory infection that started the throat clearing. Some may have mucus or phlegm they need to get rid of. 

Causes of Throat Clearing

The most common causes for throat clearing include:

  • Post-nasal drip
  • Medications

These issues can usually be managed by a primary care provider. 

Some other potential reasons for throat clearing include:

  • Vocal fold injuries
  • Swallowing issues
  • Certain vocal or motor tic disorders, such as Tourette’s syndrome  

When to Seek Help

Schiffer advises those with persistent throat pain or irritation, trouble swallowing, increasing difficulty swallowing, or coughing up blood to see their health care provider. 

“Anything that is bothersome or disruptive to your daily life—even if it ends up not being life threatening—it’s always reasonable to discuss with a medical professional,” Schiffer says.

Finding the underlying cause of throat clearing is the first step to treatment. According to Schiffer, the doctor will likely ask patients questions such as: 

  • When do you clear your throat the most? Is it when you wake up in the morning or toward the end of the day? Is it during a meal or after a meal?
  • Have you had a history of sinus infections, allergies, asthma, or bronchitis?
  • Have you had an increase in gastroesophageal reflux or heartburn after eating?

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When Therapy Is Needed

For some patients, medications may not be helpful, or constant throat clearing may cause more irritation to the throat or vocal cords. For these patients, the doctor may recommend therapy exercises to help the patient reduce the amount of throat clearing.

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Postnasal Drip: Causes and How to Get Relief

Drainage of Mucus Down the Back of Your Throat

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Postnasal drip occurs when  mucus  in your nose drains down the back of your throat. This may happen because your body produces more mucus than it needs or is not able to clear it as quickly as usual.

Mucus itself isn't harmful and actually protects you from illness and provides lubrication. That said, postnasal drip can be bothersome if it causes itchiness or a tickle in your throat, a cough, frequent throat clearing, or hoarseness.

Postnasal drip may be temporary—for example, it often will clear up after an infection passes. It can also become chronic, such as if you have allergies or gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD). Treatment for postnasal drip can help with symptoms as well as addressing the underlying cause. 

This article explains the symptoms and causes of postnasal drip, as well as how it's diagnosed and treated.

Postnasal Drip Symptoms

The symptoms of postnasal drip are generally mild and include:

  • A burning feeling in your throat
  • Losing your voice
  • Persistent cough (postnasal drip is also known as upper airway cough syndrome)
  • Scratchy, tickling, or itching in the back of your throat
  • Sore throat
  • The sensation of a lump in the back of your throat
  • Throat clearing
  • Watery eyes

These symptoms can get better or worse throughout the day. For example, you may feel worse after lying down for a while or after talking for a long time.

Postnasal drip generally lasts for a few days or weeks, depending on the cause. If it becomes chronic, you may have it for months.

Postnasal drip is not dangerous. However, some activities—like skiing or scuba diving, which require wearing a mask—can be uncomfortable if you have postnasal drip.

When to See a Healthcare Provider

If you have postnasal drip a few times per year and it gets better on its own, you probably don’t need to worry about it. 

However, if you have postnasal drip often or for more than a few weeks, you should talk to your healthcare provider. You should also call your provider if you have postnasal drip in conjunction with: 

  • Difficulty swallowing , trouble breathing, or a choking feeling
  • Moderate to heavy blood in your nasal secretions
  • Dyspnea (shortness of breath)
  • Foul-smelling mucus
  • Fever, vomiting, or ear pain (signs of an infection that needs medical treatment)

What Causes Postnasal Drip?

The cause of postnasal drip can be categorized as short-term conditions, sudden triggers, or longer-lasting (chronic) issues.

Temporary Conditions

Some temporary conditions that can cause postnasal drip include: 

  • Infections like sinusitis , the common cold , influenza, cytomegalovirus (CMV) , respiratory syncytial virus (RSV) , adenovirus , and strep throat  
  • Seasonal allergies
  • Pregnancy-induced rhinitis
  • Hormone fluctuations

Sudden Triggers

Sudden triggers that can cause postnasal drip include: 

  • Eating spicy foods
  • Eating dairy products
  • Exercise-induced rhinitis
  • A foreign object stuck in the nose
  • Pet allergies

Chronic Conditions

Chronic causes of postnasal drip include: 

  • GERD, or chronic acid reflux
  • Allergies to mold, dust, or dander
  • Anatomical abnormalities such as a deviated septum or enlarged turbinates
  • Medications such as birth control and drugs to lower blood pressure
  • Rebound congestion due to overuse of pseudoephedrine nasal sprays
  • Swallowing problems

Postnasal drip is usually diagnosed based on your symptoms and a physical exam. If your provider is unsure of the diagnosis, they may want you to have allergy testing, imaging, or other tests to look for a cause.

Physical Examination

If you have a fever, your postnasal drip could be caused by an infection. Your provider will look in the back of your throat to see if there is any redness or swelling and ask if you have any other signs of infection (such as headaches, fever, chills, and muscle aches).

If your phlegm is tinged with blood, it could be a sign of a more serious infection. For example, your provider may need to do other tests to look for problems in your lungs.

Allergy Testing

If your postnasal drip symptoms tend to come back every few days or weeks and get better between episodes, then you could be having an allergic reaction or sensitivity to something in your environment (e.g., pollen, food). 

Your provider may want you to keep a diary of your symptoms and note what you ate and what you were doing before your symptoms happened. (For example, were you gardening outside or playing with your pets?)  Allergy testing  can also help pinpoint postnasal drip triggers.

If you have postnasal drip most of the time, it could be from an anatomical cause, such as a deviated septum.

You will need a physical exam and imaging tests to look for any shape or size variations in parts of your body (like your nose) that could be causing your symptoms.

Interventional Tests

If your provider thinks you have something like GERD, you might need special tests such as:  

  • Direct laryngoscopy to look at your upper throat with a scope
  • 24-hour pH probe to test for acid reflux 
  • Esophagogastroduodenoscopy to check the lining of your esophagus, stomach, and small intestine

How to Stop Postnasal Drip

There are several strategies for  treating postnasal drip . If it’s mild and you don’t have it all the time, you can probably manage postnasal drip symptoms at home. If it’s more of a constant or severe problem, you might need medication or surgery to fix the cause of postnasal drip.

Home Remedies

There are some general lifestyle tips you can try that may make it easier to deal with postnasal drip, no matter what’s causing it.

  • Drink plenty of water to lubricate your throat and keep your mucus thin (and less bothersome).
  • Use a cool-mist humidifier at night while you sleep.
  • Try rinsing your nasal passageways with a neti pot .
  • Use a vaporizer or diffuser with essential oils, such as peppermint or eucalyptus.

What About Chicken Soup?

In one often-cited study, classic chicken soup lowered white blood cells ( neutrophils ) in the upper airways of people with colds, which seemed to help with symptoms. Experts say that any hot liquid (not just soup) can thin mucus and may help with postnasal drip.

Over-the-Counter Treatments

If you also have symptoms like congestion, sore throat, and cough along with postnasal drip, you can try some over-the-counter (OTC) treatments including:

  • Tylenol (acetaminophen) or cough lozenges for sore throat
  • Claritin ( loratadine ) and Benadryl ( diphenhydramine ), antihistamines that can ease allergy symptoms
  • Sudafed ( pseudoephedrine ) for congestion
  • Medicated nasal spray, such as Afrin (oxymetazoline) , to make breathing more comfortable
  • Mucinex ( guaifenesin ) to loosen up mucus
  • Saline nasal spray to clear blocked nasal passages
  • Vapor rubs to help you breathe easier
  • Nasal irrigation (with a neti pot or another method)

Ask your healthcare provider or pharmacist before using any new treatments or medications, even those you get OTC. You should not use decongestants for more than three days in a row. 

Prescription Medications

There are also prescription medications that can be used to treat postnasal drip or the underlying cause of it. 

For persistent postnasal drip or postnasal drip that’s complicated by asthma, a provider may prescribe a medication called Atrovent (ipratropium bromide) or a steroid. If you have a bacterial or fungal respiratory infection, you may need antibiotics or antifungals to treat it.

GERD needs a treatment strategy that includes medications and lifestyle changes, such as avoiding fatty and spicy foods, taking acid-reducing medications, and sleeping with your head slightly elevated.

It's a big leap from occasional postnasal drip to surgery, but if your symptoms are hard to treat or the cause is anatomical (e.g., the structure of your sinuses), it could be fixed with a procedure. 

Surgeries that may be done for various causes of postnasal drip include:

  • Sinus surgery
  • Submucosal resection of the septum
  • Septoplasty
  • Turbinate reduction

Many people have postnasal drip from time to time and it's usually nothing to worry about. The symptoms, like an itchy throat, coughing, hoarseness, and watery eyes, can be irritating but are usually not serious. 

Postnasal drip usually goes away on its own. If it doesn’t, or the symptoms get worse, see your provider to find out what’s causing it. In some cases, treating postnasal drip comes down to avoiding triggers, making lifestyle changes, or treating an underlying condition. If you have postnasal drip because of a structural problem, you might need surgery to fix it.

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I Knew Diddy for Years. What I Now Remember Haunts Me.

Looking back on my life as a woman in the music industry, I’m unsettled by the inescapable sexism perpetrated by Sean Combs and others.

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  • Published July 12, 2024 Updated July 16, 2024, 2:32 p.m. ET

A thing happened between Sean Combs and me. Unlike what he has been accused of over the last eight months, what occurred between us was not sexual. It was professional — demonstrative of the way dynamic and domineering men moved in our heyday. Combs and I worked together a lot. Competed, in our way. So often I thought I came out on top. I was mistaken. I had reason to fear for my life. What happened was insidious. It broke my brain. I forgot the worst of it for 27 years.

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It was July 1997. In the fading smoke of the murders of Tupac Shakur and the Notorious B.I.G., I was named editor in chief of a music magazine called Vibe. Started by Quincy Jones and Time Inc. in 1992, the magazine chronicled Black music and culture with rigor and beauty, 10 issues a year, for an audience that was relentlessly underserved. When I took over, we thought hip-hop might have died with our heroes, and we were determined not only to keep it alive but also to give it the cultural credit it was due.

Hip-hop was both in mourning and in marketing meetings. Combs, Biggie’s creative partner and label boss, was the personification of this dichotomy. His Bad Boy Records was having a $100 million year — much due to the work of Biggie and Mase, as well as Combs’s own debut album, “No Way Out,” which was anchored by the blockbuster Biggie tribute “I’ll Be Missing You” featuring Faith Evans. Other singles, “It’s All About the Benjamins” and “Been Around the World,” functioned as a score for hip-hop’s megawatt moment — its commercial evolution and international expansion. (“No Way Out” would go on to sell over seven million copies.) So I wanted Combs on the cover of Vibe’s December 1997/January 1998 double issue. And I wanted him to wear white feathered wings.

Faith Evans and Sean Combs in a field.

My point of reference was the poster for “Heaven Can Wait,” a 1978 film starring Warren Beatty. The movie is about a quarterback who dies before his time and is reincarnated as an idiosyncratic and callous billionaire. Vibe’s working cover line for Sacha Jenkins’s article was “The Good, the Bad and the Puffy.” Not so elegant, but it would work if the fashion director Emil Wilbekin and I got Combs (then known as Puffy, or Puff Daddy) to put on the angel wings. And if we also got a shot that looked even slightly mischievous, we could do a split run of the cover — one with heavenly signifiers and another with hellish ones. Possible cover line: “Bad Boy, Bad Boy, Whatcha Gonna Do?”

The photo shoot took place in Manhattan in September 1997. I had probably said hello to Combs at an event, but the shoot was the first time I was around him for an extended period. Either it was a crowded set or I just felt claustrophobic. I wore yoga pants and an oversize T-shirt. I remember wanting to minimize my bust more than my bra was already doing. I remember cajoling. And I remember knowing that as a Black woman, I was in a no-win situation: to fail was to live up to my male bosses’ low expectations, and to succeed was to invite their resentment. That day, Combs was begrudgingly compliant. We finally got him to shrug on the white feathered wings.

He cooperated up to a point, but eventually his controlling ways took hold. A few days later, Combs wanted to see the Vibe covers before they went to press. It wasn’t our policy to show covers before publication, so after I told him no, we heard that he planned to come to our office and force us to show him what we’d chosen — and to make us choose something else if he didn’t like what he saw.

I’m sure I was concerned, but my priority was getting the issue to the printer on time. There was vague talk about Combs’s beating a woman at the Bad Boy offices. In 1996 he was found guilty of criminal mischief for threatening a New York Post photographer with a gun. Combs was also busy denying that he had something to do with the 1996 killing of Tupac Shakur. In September 1997, Combs had a reputation for shaking tables. I’d reconciled the rumors with his relevance, and the math was ugly and simple: I had to have him on the cover. So a few Vibe employees put together a plan to keep me safe if he chose to visit that day.

I was in my office on the third floor of a building on the boring corner of Lexington and 32nd Street. A few doors away from me, Vibe’s research chief, Ava Chin, was with the managing editor, Jesse Washington, in his office with her back to the open door. Jesse looked over her head, as if someone was behind her. Jesse stood up. He’s 6-foot-4, and Ava saw him trying to make himself even taller. As though he were squaring off. So she turned toward the door and saw Combs with two security dudes. Combs asked, “Where’s Danyel?” The receptionist had already notified other colleagues that Combs had walked into the editorial bullpen. As he and his two associates looked into various cubicles and offices, my co-workers eased into mine.

Paper proofs of the cover story and both the angelic and devilish covers were on my desk. I grabbed the unruly stack of 11x17s. Staff members shuttled me from office to office to the spiral staircase and the alternate second-floor elevator bank. I made it to 32nd between Lexington and Third Avenue, clutching the proofs. Jesse eventually came down. He took the pages from me, flagged a taxi and put me in a yellow cab home to Brooklyn.

The next day, though, I was right back in the office. My assistant received a call on my line. “It’s Puffy,” she said. I got my mind right and picked up. He was still on message: He wanted to see the covers. I was still on message: It’s not what we do. It was then that Combs told me, as I’ve retold hundreds of times over the years, that he would see me “dead in the trunk of a car.” Not missing a beat, I told him he needed to take that threat back. “Take it back,” I said, sounding as if I were 10.

“Take what back?” Then, with a vile laugh, “[Expletive] you.”

“Take it back now,” I said. “Or I’m calling my lawyer, and you’re going to jail.”

He said: “I know where you are right now. Right on Lexington.”

I called my personal lawyer. I do not know what he said to Combs. Within two hours, Combs faxed over an apology. One of my male bosses was furious that I had not involved him. Combs had called him to complain that I sicced my lawyer on him, as if I somehow wasn’t playing fair.

Soon after those menacing encounters, I walked into work one morning to find my staff members tamping down panic. A couple of servers, which back then were as big as end tables and twice as heavy, had been stolen, and the scuttlebutt was that the theft was an inside job. That someone on Vibe’s publishing side had let in movers from Bad Boy. It was almost time to send pages to the printer, and the whole issue was saved on those servers. All the editorial changes. All the pages, with the advertising adjacencies that had been paid for by clients. Gone. (In response to fact-checking inquiries, Combs, via representatives, would not comment on the record for this piece.)

I’ve always remembered the threatening call. I mentioned it in my memoir, “Shine Bright,” though I got wrong the reason for his vexation. But I repressed the rest. The only reason I know the details is a chance meeting I had at the MacDowell artists’ residency this May. Ava Chin, who is now an author and a professor of creative nonfiction, was also there. I hadn’t seen her in decades. Ava asked me early in the residency if I was ever going to write about Vibe. I said, “Yes,” and she said, “Good.” Then, just before I left, I mentioned that I was writing about Combs and told her that he said he would see me dead in the trunk of a car. In the previous months, accusations of his serial abuse of women, which had been rumored for years, had surfaced, and I was thinking about my professional relationship with him. I asked her if she remembered the tense situation. Over her turkey club, Ava said, “I absolutely remember.” She wasn’t privy to the phone conversation, but she knew other details. She told me my own story. I don’t remember being shuttled from office to office. “Shuttled” is Ava’s word.

The entire memory had been removed from my mind, like the servers that were stolen from the offices. I wanted someone else to validate the story, so from the rear garden of MacDowell’s main building, I FaceTimed Jesse Washington, who is now a journalist and filmmaker. When he confirmed Ava’s recounting, I stared at the long green meadow, processing. The fact that two people had to tell me a story about myself was mortifying. It made me question my own truths. I was flooded with questions about my own experiences of vulnerability, victimhood, ambition, fear and regret, and what all of it means with regard to my professional and personal legacies. Considering this nauseating image of myself running and hiding from Combs, of people at work protecting me, made me confront other things I’d possibly repressed about that feral and fantastic time in my life. To be a powerful woman in the music industry, and in the hip-hop media specifically, exacted a toll I’ve resisted reckoning with. It’s so much easier, frankly, to tell other people’s stories. As a journalist, I have learned how to get people to recall stuff they would rather forget or keep to themselves. It’s an art tart with betrayal. But it’s mine. And so Here we are , I was thinking in that garden. Now I have to remember.

I don’t recollect exactly how Combs and I left things after he threatened me in ’97, but it’s not as though we could stop dealing with each other. Hip-hop, inching its way toward world domination, needed us to keep contributing in our respective ways — on my end, documenting its trajectory, and on his, branching out into television, liquor and more. We interacted when necessary. Sometimes an exchange was just us smiling for cameras.

Two photos of us stand out to me and mark places where our journeys intersected. There’s one from the 1990s in which my hair is its natural dark brown, and I have on a navy-and-turquoise zip hoodie. I’m awkward in his embrace, still getting used to being in the limelight. The other is from October 2006. I’m 41, with my new grays cinnamon-coated by the celebrity colorist Rita Hazan. My teeth have been Invisaligned, and my gaze is sure. We’re posing before a party celebrating both the release of his album “Press Play” and the new issue of Vibe magazine. Combs is the cover star. I wrote the celebratory article.

In our 2006 photo, Combs is in a black tuxedo, a black shirt and sunglasses. In some of the shots from that night, I look discordantly joyful; in others I look like I would rather Combs not hold me so closely or kiss me on the cheek. I was a newlywed, and also a professional. I had resigned from Vibe in 1999, and when I was rehired in 2006, Combs was among the first people I called to appear on a cover. I did so because I knew the cover would both succeed at the newsstand and reaffirm to my new venture-capitalist chieftains that I still had my chops and that my industry relationships were flawless. So in that series of photos, Combs and I are playing the roles of mogul and editor in chief, and we’re nailing it.

I’ve been thinking a lot about those two photos lately — and all the photos of me and Combs together. It’s bizarre to see myself smiling in pictures with someone accused of such heinous crimes. In November 2023, Casandra Ventura, who performs as Cassie, sued Combs under New York’s Adult Survivors Act, claiming that he raped, abused and sex-trafficked her over the span of a decade. (They settled one day after Ventura filed the lawsuit, and the terms of the settlement have not been disclosed.) In the ensuing months, Combs has been the subject of seven civil lawsuits; six of them accuse him of sexual assault. The accusations go as far back as 1990. After Ventura filed her lawsuit, Liza Gardner accused Combs and the R.&B. singer Aaron Hall of a 1990 rape. Shortly after, Joi Nickerson-Neal accused Combs of drugging her, sexually assaulting her and recording the assault without her knowledge in 1991, when she was a student at Syracuse University. A Jane Doe filed a suit in December claiming that Combs, along with his Bad Boy colleague Harve Pierre and a third unidentified assailant, gang-raped her at Daddy’s House, a recording studio owned by Combs, in 2003. This May, April Lampros, who was a student at the Fashion Institute of Technology, accused Combs of raping her three times in 1995 and 1996. That same month, the model Crystal McKinney said that Combs invited her to Daddy’s House during Men’s Fashion Week in 2003 and assaulted her. (Combs’s lawyers have so far denied the accusations in all but the last two of these lawsuits.)

The videographer and producer Rodney Jones, also known as Lil Rod, filed a federal lawsuit claiming that Combs has hidden cameras in all his properties, that individuals were recorded without their consent and that because of a “treasure trove” of compromising video, Combs believes he is “above the law.” Jones also claims that Combs threatened and sexually harassed him. In one instance, he says, he woke up dizzy and naked — with Combs and two sex workers. (In a statement, one of Combs’s lawyers characterized Jones’s accusations as “complete lies.”)

Last December, Combs took to Instagram, writing: “I did not do any of the awful things being alleged. I will fight for my name, my family and for the truth.” Then, on May 17, a 2016 surveillance video obtained by CNN showed Combs, in a white towel, attacking Ventura at an InterContinental hotel. In the clip, he hits, shoves and kicks Ventura, who was his girlfriend at the time. He drags her limp body. In this video, the body language that makes him so singular as a performer and a bon vivant gives him completely away. On May 19, Combs did a 180, seeming to change course on his claim that Ventura’s accusations were “baseless and outrageous lies.” He shared a recorded apology on his Instagram feed: “My behavior on that video is inexcusable,” he said. “I take full responsibility for my actions in that video.” (In late June, Combs deleted all of the posts on his Instagram page.)

In past times, I attended Combs’s large music-industry parties — in New York City, the Hamptons, Miami. To be clear, he has never acted in any way sexually inappropriate toward me. I have slammed shots with him at Rockefeller Center and the Roc Nation Brunch. Combs is a genius. He is also sincere in his ambition, and in his malevolence. In the entertainment industry, none of this makes him unusual. It’s shameful, and wack, for me not to have known fully. I considered myself a hard-hitting journalist. At the time, I broke stories about predation in the music business.

In 1994, when I was the music editor at Vibe, the investigative team that I was a part of figured out that the 27-year-old R. Kelly had married the 15-year-old Aaliyah. We got our hands on the license, and the photographer Dana Lixenberg and I chased Kelly to a tour stop in Philadelphia. I wrote the cover story that verified what had only been wild rumors about his sex crimes.

It’s easy to think of the ’90s and aughts as a strange time. I could, in the space of a day, be working on an R. Kelly article, editing a piece about hip-hop feminism and then be at one of Combs’s — or most anyone’s — shindigs, not knowing what was happening in the very next room. All of this has been normal since the dawn of pop. To report sexual misconduct — whether it was to attorneys or law enforcement or even your supervisor — often meant losing your job. Being ostracized. Or being a girl that just didn’t “get it,” or didn’t know how to fend for herself.

The music industry was, and is, a mean place. Journalists were being threatened at recording studios and stomped in their own offices. In the spring of 1999, the music executive Steve Stoute claimed that Combs and two bodyguards attacked him over the way Combs was depicted in a music video. He said that Combs punched him in the face and hit him in the head with a telephone and a Champagne bottle. (Stoute later asked the court to drop the charges after Combs publicly apologized and pleaded guilty to harassment.) Not only were many rank-and-file workers in our business — men and women alike — jittery about our physical and emotional safety, we were enlisted to boost the egos of the very artists and executives who felt entitled to violate us. We became used to playing the game; we were conditioned to look the other way or, when looking at something straight ahead, to not see it for what it was. Or even to unsee it. In our 2006 interview, Combs said: “Somebody gave me multiple choices early on — having a smooth working relationship, having a personal life or being in the music industry. I chose the music industry.” Same, Puff. Same. Too many of us did. We wouldn’t have thought of ourselves as ambivalent or numb then, but that’s what we were. A lot of us women wanted our fair shot at winning. There were dues to pay. We paid dearly.

There’s no party cooler and more insanely fun than a music-industry party. Right? The trade salts and sugars its women and devours them like hors d’oeuvres. Our bodies are not our own: breasts and asses are meant to be squeezed anonymously from behind at crowded bars where real and difficult work is being celebrated. Some girls survive — dried out or skeletal or just tough. Some women, via luck or brilliance or exfoliation, excel. Some marry in. Others disappear. The business, moving at its seductive, breakneck pace, spits them out.

Many female executives and top-level creative types started as standout students, interns, administrators and receptionists. We communicated in the posh ladies’ rooms in hip restaurants and in nods and fleeting eye contact in office buildings. One intern said she was hesitant to speak to me because “the guys downstairs told me you were such a bitch and that you hate pretty girls.” I was a bitch because I had heard that the sales guys were using their offices as late-night no-tell motel rooms. This woman remembered that I used to look away from her when she passed me in hallways. It was weird though , she said, because you seemed nice?

It was weird. And I was nice — as I could be, when I could be. Ambition, in an industry that pretends scarcity, must make monsters of women who wanted to be what was back then called Big Willies, a euphemism for large penises. Vibe honchos organized “Big Willie” panel discussions at industry seminars. This when female artists and executives were working twice as hard for less money and only whispered credit. This when so many wives and girlfriends of male stars succeeded in the music business by formally or informally managing their partners’ careers without professional kudos or full payment. Even the work of being a muse is usually grimy and unprotected.

Take Kim Porter, for example. Porter, who died in 2018, was a model and sometimes actor. Combs is the father of three of her children. On a late autumn afternoon in 1998, I visited Porter at the Park Avenue apartment, in a 12-story limestone building, Combs was in the process of buying, that she shared with her two little boys. Combs was not there that afternoon. I rarely ended up in Porter’s presence, but when I did, her personality seemed a mix of femme fatale and mean girl. The mean girl felt fueled by a broken heart.

Porter and I and two other friends eventually went to a buzzy restaurant for cocktails. Sometime later, Combs came in. He knew all of us at the table but didn’t acknowledge us. He demanded that Porter hand over her baguette purse and turned it upside-down. Her belongings splattered on the table among lime eighths and ice crumbs. He snatched up her bank cards to the beat of: You ain’t got. No business. In here. You need. To be. At home. With. Those. Kids. Combs yelled something like, Get home as best you can . From the sidewalk, I saw Porter being hustled into the limo in which we arrived. One of the friends, more tired than terrified, shot me a look: You good? And they were gone.

“A woman deserves to be nurtured and taken care of,” Combs told me eight years later, for our 2006 cover story. “Kim taught me that. She … taught me how to love.” Maybe he learned that. Maybe he didn’t. To be honest, pressing him didn’t occur to me. I had just laid off almost a dozen good people. This was the beginning of the end of print magazines, and another one of those times when I did what I had to do to keep the magazine alive. It was my job.

It was also my job to hear what women were saying even when they weren’t quite saying it. On Aug. 29, 2015, I was in Culver City, Calif., at Epic Records’s annual celebration of its artists. There was a lot of loud talking and drinking, and I found myself retreating to a cool alcove where the wait staff was being handed platters of tuna in tong gang spoons. In four-inch sandals, Cassie walked over uncharacteristically alone. She and Combs were rumored to have gotten engaged the year before, but there had been no wedding, and I didn’t see a ring. She also hadn’t released a second album after her smash single “Me & U” went to No. 3 on Billboard’s Hot 100 in 2006, despite being signed to Bad Boy for almost a decade. When I saw her in Culver City, it was about six months before the assault shown in the CNN InterContinental video.

She surprised me when she gracefully squatted, so that we were eye to eye. Cassie asked how I was.

Me: “Fine, lady, fine. How are you?”

She: “ How are you doing it?”

Me: “Doing what?”

She: “ Like, how are you managing? ”

She placidly awaited an answer, and I felt myself tremble. Maybe she saw in me a fellow industry introvert, someone skilled at the Irish exit. Perhaps she wanted to know how I was still married (at that time, for 10 years) to a man in the music and media industries. But what caused the tremble was the feeling that she had heard from mutual friends that I was sexually assaulted (a decade before) by someone we both knew. Because I was. And I was paranoid. And she was still there, looking at me. It felt as if she were trying to send me an extrasensory signal. I gave her a generic “Girl, what? I’m fine.”

We each wanted to say something. It seemed that neither of us could find the words. After a moment, she rose up on those stilettos as if she were barefoot on a soft lawn. She waved goodbye and walked back toward the fresh air. (Contacted through her lawyers, Cassie had no comment.)

There’s no safe space for an ambitious woman. Not anywhere, and definitely not in the entertainment business. Men keep it dangerous so they can keep it theirs. Once, a media executive bullied me in a bar and, despite my protests, made it clear he was going to walk me to my hotel room. It was obvious that he wanted sex. In his pulsing nostril was resentment about the job I had. He had the focused look of a person who believes you have stolen something from him, and that something is actually you. That happened to me in the mid-90s, but it has been going on in pop music since forever.

Louis McKay physically and financially abused Billie Holiday. Ike Turner physically and emotionally abused Tina Turner. Ted White beat Aretha Franklin. Jerry Lee Lewis married his 13-year-old cousin, who, when filing for divorce more than a decade later, in 1970, claimed that she had been “subject to every type of physical and mental abuse imaginable.” Both David Ruffin and James Brown beat Tammi Terrell. The convicted killer Phil Spector locked Ronnie Spector in their home. Miles Davis’s marriage to the funk singer Betty Davis reportedly ended because of what she called his “violent temper.” Donna Summer was abused by her boyfriend Peter Mühldorfer. Dr. Dre beat the singer Michel’le and the journalist Dee Barnes. Chris Brown hit Rihanna. More than a dozen women have accused Russell Simmons of sexual assault, and in some cases rape, all of which he denies. (He also has denied that he moved to Bali to avoid extradition.) L.A. Reid stepped down as the chief executive of Epic Records following a 2017 accusation of sexual harassment by an assistant (a lawsuit filed last year accuses him of sexual assault and harassment). Tory Lanez shot Megan Thee Stallion. Last month, the producer Diplo was accused of distributing sexual images and videos of a woman without her consent. (His lawyer cast doubt on the accusation.) And then there are the countless women who remain unnamed or choose to be anonymous or decide not to report at all.

I know the beats of getting beat (I was half-raised by an alcoholic father figure), and I still don’t know how to act. A Vibe staff member told me on her return from interviewing a musician that he assaulted her. I tried to comfort her but didn’t say much that helped. I know I didn’t, because years later she told me so. I stuttered and stumbled. I had no language to talk about what happened to her, because I couldn’t even say what happened to me. She was healing. I was still running and reeling from a work-related sexual assault. She and I always kept in touch, though, and years later she invited me to her wedding. I couldn’t get myself together to attend. Supposedly the big-time mentor lady, I was embarrassed and guilty and ragged about not being there for her, about not being the person I wish had been there for me. Sometimes acknowledging another woman’s pain forces you to stare deep at your own. So you minimize hers, and you minimize yours and you keep it moving. As they say in books, and on T-shirts, and in so many rap songs — including the Lox and Puffy’s 1998 track — can’t stop, won’t stop.

My glory days were infused with crisis. There was the not knowing, the wondering, the suspecting, the kind of knowing, the actually knowing, the acting as if you don’t know. I have been a fly on the wall, and a fly pinned to it. I made a career in the music business. I loved it, and it almost killed me. It was a lot to hold in my mind at once. The sadness and anxiety pushed me to nicotine and then Wellbutrin. Some of my past times, including Combs’s stalking me at the Vibe office, had to be redacted. I blacked them out in order to keep the lights on.

Some things were recovered. Back in 1997, on the afternoon the servers were stolen from the Vibe office, it turned out that our art director had the issue on a disk she had taken home. We were able to publish our angel and devil covers of Combs. In each, he is looking over the top of dark glasses. In each, he looks as though he would continue winning for a long time.

The last time I saw Combs in person, it was February 2020, at the house in Los Angeles that was raided this March by Homeland Security Investigations agents. I was invited to chat about possibly participating in a docuseries that Combs was creating about his life. I hadn’t spoken to him in a while.

As it was, Combs was fresh off a star-studded 50th-birthday party. I was curious about whether such a big milestone had triggered in him a desire to tell his true stories. My husband and I put in place a plan of texting and pin-dropping, so I would never be out of touch. There was no way, though, that I wasn’t going to go. One, I’m a journalist; I was dutybound. Two, my ego, ambition and expertise say that it should be me getting the big interviews. Three, there is power and meaning in showing up. If I don’t go, I can’t take notes, and I can’t have an experience that becomes mine through writing.

A film crew was at Combs’s house. He was in a leg brace, having just undergone his fourth surgery in two years (this time it was to repair a quad tendon tear). “This is God’s work,” he said on Instagram, “to slow me down.” His twin daughters, then 13, drifted about, concurrently blasé and inquisitive. Over a dozen of us sat in a pristine outdoor kitchen watching emotional footage. Combs introduced me to the group as a longtime journalist who asks real questions.

I was surprised when he asked me what, when I eventually interviewed him, I would ask him first.

I hesitated.

He said, “Don’t answer that.”

People laughed. I remember being glad I was part of such a large and familial group. And even comforted a bit by the post-surgical leg brace that Combs appeared to need. I was where I was supposed to be. I’d been told since I first started going to shows on my own that it was dangerous, that someone was going to rape me, or stab me, or rob me. Or steal me. It seemed then like a conspiracy to keep me in the house — from becoming myself, from knowing myself as brave.

Three weeks later the Covid lockdowns began in Los Angeles. I didn’t end up participating in the documentary.

Combs and I traded goodbyes in a great room overwhelmed by “Past Times,” a huge painting by Kerry James Marshall. The acrylic-and-collage work was created in 1997, that unfathomable year that Biggie died, Combs the producer/entrepreneur emerged as an artist and hip-hop changed forever. It’s easy to see why Combs would be drawn to such a larger-than-life depiction of play, freedom from labor and affluence as ordinary. There’s water skiing, croquet, golfing, picnic accouterment. On the 9.5-by-13-foot canvas are bits of lyrics from the Temptations and Snoop Dogg. The painting’s inhabitants wear white, as the “who’s who” did for years at Combs’s Gatsbian “white parties.” I attended a few of those. Scanning “Past Times,” I could almost smell those old coupes of evaporating champagne.

The painting had carried a presale estimate of $8 million to $12 million. Anonymously, Combs battled bidders as the price rose to a record-setting $21.1 million (widely reported to be the most ever paid for the work of a living Black artist). “Sky is the limit/And you know that you can/Have what you want/Be what you want.” So goes the Bad Boy song. Perhaps every Bad Boy song. Sky’s the limit when you’re buying a picture in which you see yourself in all your glory. One that seems to float close to your own memory of the way things were. The painting sits in his home as an angelically clean version of a deeply explicit industry. Our past times, unironically nicknamed “the golden era” of hip-hop, are as much folk tale as fact.

The growing set of accusations against Combs has me angrily calling into question the fullness of my own memory and the precision of my timeline. I have already lost long stretches of my life, so what, in the grand scheme of things, is an afternoon from 1997? Actually, it’s everything. I already spend a lot of time playing catch-up, because I’ve handed whole years to depression. I was a bed-rotter before it was called that. I could barely hear music for the tears in my ears. It’s one thing to deal with brain fog. You guzzle cold-water-fish oil, and you keep it moving. But I mean, to have blocked out a whole series of events is terrifying. Because what else is missing? What do I not know that I have not seen? What, in hip-hop, have I not heard?

I’ve never wanted to believe that music — which saved my life as a child and teenager, reinforced my audacity in my 20s and provided a way for me to make a living in my adulthood — could fail me. It is, in too many ways, my life. I’m the goddamned institutional memory. So it’s particularly rancid that this suppressed episode has placed me in a well of self-doubt. Here I am, in a familiar victim mode, disciplining myself into not taking on blame — for not knowing what I didn’t know and for managing what I did. The questions drip down on me, slowly, steadily, a torture: Was my magazine too well done? And too loud? Should I have even gone to the white parties ? They keep coming. Was my skirt too short? Is it possible that I stayed at the party too long?

Read by Janina Edwards

Narration produced by Tanya Pérez and Krish Seenivasan

Engineered by Ted Blaisdell

Source photos for top illustration, from left: Steve Double/Camera Press/Redux; Marc Serota/Getty Images; Prince Williams/WireImage, via Getty Images.

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Mixing Up Words When Speaking Anxiety Symptoms

Jim Folk, BScN

Mixed up words when speaking anxiety symptoms description:

Anxiety disorder can cause many problems, including getting words mixed up with speaking. Here are some descriptions of the mixed up words anxiety symptom:

  • When you go to speak, even though you are thinking clearly, it seems when you say the words they come out mixed up, backwards, or flipped around.
  • When speaking you notice that your words get mixed up even though you knew what you wanted to say.
  • Sometimes you find that you mix up your words or that what you said didn’t make sense.
  • You unintentionally mix up your words when speaking.
  • Your words get mixed up frequently and it seems there’s nothing you can do to stop it.
  • When you’ve mixed up your words, others found it funny but you may have become concerned that you might have a mental problem developing.
  • Even though you think through your thoughts carefully, your words get mixed up when you speak them.
  • You find that you are frequently mixing up your words, and this is beginning to bother and worry you.
  • Others may point out that you are mixing up your words when speaking, which you didn’t seem to be aware of.
  • You are getting your words backwards, mixed up, jumbled, and out of correct order.

This mixing up words when speaking anxiety symptom can affect only certain topics, many topics, or everything you are talking about.

This mixing up words when speaking anxiety symptom can come and go rarely, occur frequently, or persist indefinitely. For example, you may get your words mixed up once and a while and not that often, get them mixed up off and on, or get them mixed up all the time.

This mixing up words when speaking anxiety symptom may precede, accompany, or follow an escalation of other anxiety sensations and symptoms, or occur by itself.

This mixing up words when speaking anxiety symptom can precede, accompany, or follow an episode of nervousness, anxiety, fear, and elevated stress, or occur ‘out of the blue’ and for no apparent reason.

This mixing up words when speaking anxiety symptom can range in intensity from slight, to moderate, to severe. It can also come in waves, where it’s strong one moment and eases off the next.

This mixing up words when speaking anxiety symptom can change from day to day, and/or from moment to moment.

All of the above combinations and variations are common.

This mixing up words anxiety symptom can seem much worse when overly stressed, overly anxious, when tired and fatigued, and/or when sleep has been disrupted and/or short.

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What causes the mixing up words when speaking anxiety symptoms?

Anxiety (behaving apprehensively) activates the stress response . The stress response (also often referred to as the Emergency Response) immediately causes a number of physiological, psychological, and emotional changes that enhance the body's ability to deal with a threat - to either fight with or flee from it - which is the reason the stress response is also often referred to as the fight or flight response.

A part of the stress response changes include a change in brain function where the areas of the brain responsible for dealing with danger increase their activity and the areas of the brain responsible for rationally processing information become suppressed. This change is designed as part of the body’s survival mechanism because it’s better that we react to danger quickly rather than remain in the middle of danger trying to figure things out.

Recovery Support members can read more about the exact physiological, psychological, and emotional changes in the ‘Hyperstimulation And Its Effects’ section in Chapter 14.

As a result of these emergency response changes, our awareness and sensitivities to danger are heightened and our ability to rationalize, think clearly, and act clearly are diminished. This is often the reason people seem like they are stunned or like a ‘deer caught in the headlights’ when they are in dangerous situations and/or when overly anxious. It’s not because they are experiencing some sort of mental issue but that being afraid has caused this emergency response change in brain function.

When stress responses are active, we can experience a wide range of abnormal actions, such as mixing up our words when speaking. Many anxious and overly stressed people experience mixing up their words when speaking. Because this is just another symptom of anxiety and/or stress, it needn’t be a need for concern. Mixing up words is not an indication of a serious mental issue. Again, it’s just another symptom of anxiety and/or stress.

Similar to how mixing up words can be caused by an active stress response, it can also occur when the body becomes stress-response hyperstimulated (overly stressed and stimulated). So even though you may not feel anxious or stressed, this symptom can still occur if your body is stress-response hyperstimulated.

Again, Recovery Support members can read more about why anxiety symptoms occur, persist, and why they can take so long to get rid of in the ‘Hyperstimulation And Its Effects’ section in Chapter 14, among other chapters in the Recovery Support area .

How to get rid of the mixing up words when speaking anxiety symptoms?

When the mixing up words anxiety symptoms are caused by apprehensive behavior and the accompanying stress response changes, calming yourself down will bring an end to the stress response and its changes. As your body recovers from the active stress response, this symptom should subside and you should return to your normal self. Keep in mind that it can take up to 20 minutes or more for the body to recover from a major stress response. But this is normal and shouldn’t be a cause for concern.

When the mixing up words anxiety symptoms are caused by hyperstimulation, eliminating the body’s overly stressed state will cause this symptom to diminish and eventually disappear.

Nevertheless, when the body has fully recovered from an active stress response or stress-response hyperstimulation, ALL anxiety symptoms diminish and eventually disappear, including the mixing up words when speaking anxiety symptom.

Since mixing up words when speaking is just an indication of stress, an active stress response, and/or hyperstimulation, it needn’t be a cause for concern. It will subside when you’ve successfully addressed your anxiousness, your body’s stress, or your body’s hyperstimulated state.

You can speed up the recovery process by reducing your stress, practicing relaxed breathing, increasing your rest and relaxation, and not worrying about this symptom. Sure, mixing up words when speaking can be unsettling and even bothersome. But again, when your body has recovered from the stress response and/or sustained stress, it will completely disappear.

Tips for more immediate relief from the mixing up words symptom.

In the meantime, there are some things you can do to minimize the mixing up words symptom. For example:

  • Calm yourself before speaking. Calming yourself can bring a reverse to the changes brought about by the stress response. This will allow brain functioning a better chance of returning to normal functioning, which can make it less likely to mix up words.
  • Slow down the pace of your speech so that your words are more deliberate.
  • Speak slowly and evenly when speaking.
  • Take a deep breath and exhale slowly before speaking. This can trigger a natural tranquilizing effect that can reverse the effects of the stress response.
  • Deliberately slow your thinking down. This can result in more deliberate speaking.
  • Take your time with your words. The more rushed and thoughtless you are when speaking, the more likely it is that you might mix up your words.
  • Pause before you speak. Pausing can help you collect your thoughts, which can reduce the likelihood of mixing up words when you speak.
  • Keep your focus on what you are saying rather than thinking of the next thing to say or imagining what the other person will say.
  • Cut yourself some slack. Everyone mixes up words from time to time. This is just part of our imperfect humanness.

While the above tips may not eliminate this symptom entirely in the short-term, it can minimize its effect until the body has returned to normal, non-hyperstimulated health.

If you are having difficulty containing your worry, you may want to connect with one of our anxiety disorder therapists, coaches, or counselors. Working with an experienced anxiety disorder therapist, coach, or counselor is the most effective way to overcome what seems like unmanageable anxiety and symptoms.

For a more detailed explanation about all anxiety symptoms, why symptoms can persist long after the stress response has ended, common barriers to recovery and symptom elimination, and more recovery strategies and tips, we have many chapters that address this information in the Recovery Support area of our website.

Common Anxiety Symptoms

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The Best Kitchen Faucet Mats to Keep Your Counters Dry

K itchens are one of those make-or-break rooms you have at home, and I’m not only talking about home value here. When your kitchen is clean and everything is the way it should be, there’s almost a sense of serenity that comes along with it. But if there’s a mess somewhere or a puddle of water built up on the counter from the last time someone used the sink, it can be frustrating to say the least.

That's where kitchen faucet mats come in. These mats are designed to capture drips, leaks, and splashes from your faucet and direct it back into the sink.

Made from lightweight materials and coming with pre-cut holes that fit most standard faucets, these mats are super easy to use and make keeping your counters dry a breeze. Here are some of the best kitchen faucet mats on the market.

SXhyf Kitchen Sink Splash Guard - $7.19

This kitchen faucet mat is both the best-selling and most affordable option on Amazon, boasting nearly 2,500 ratings and costing under $10. It’s made from silicone and gray in color and tapered so the water will flow back into the sink without you having to do anything.

BFONS Silicone Faucet Handle Drip Catcher - $9.99

Another popular and affordable option from Amazon, this gray silicone kitchen faucet mat has more ridges and they’re angled towards the drop spouts. This means it’s even better at collecting water than the one above and quickly disperses it back into the sink with no effort from you.

Meiliweser Silicone Faucet Splash Guard Gen 2 - $15.99

If your faucet or other kitchen appliances are black in color, then a gray mat just won’t do the trick. That’s where this black silicone option comes in that goes with just about any modern décor you have around your home or kitchen.

VGIGCICV Kitchen Sink Splash Guard - $9.99

While these mats so far have been great in their own right, they all have one thing in common – they’re 18” or shorter in length. If you want more coverage and space for extra sponges or soap, you need something a little longer, that’s where this massive 24” kitchen faucet mat comes in. Plus, it’s only $10!

highydroLED Sink Splash Guard - $14.99

The 24” kitchen faucet mat is big, there’s no doubt about it. But for anyone that has a big kitchen sink who needs as much coverage as possible, there’s only one option. The highydroLED faucet mat comes in at an astounding 30” long, more than enough to cover the entire length of a double basin sink and protect your whole countertop from drips and splashes.

FREDI Kitchen Faucet Sink Splash Guard - $9.99

Until now, all of the mats we’ve looked at have been rectangular, which can get a little boring! With this option from Walmart, you’ll get a nearly rectangular faucet mat that juts out on both sides, adding a bit of style and flair to your setup.

YATOISUR Sink Splash Guard, Clear - $13.98

Rounding off our list of kitchen faucet mats is this clear option from Amazon that goes great with any color faucet. The grey and black mats go with most faucets, but a clear one like this fits right in with brass, nickel, bronze, copper, black, white, or really any other color since it won’t garner any attention on its own as it blends it with your counter better than any other option.

The Original Ternal Sinkmat Splash Guard - $12.00

All the other mats on this list before now were made from silicone, but the Ternal Sinkmat took a different approach, using a microfiber cloth to capture and absorb the water. Instead of redirecting the water back into the sink, this one absorbs it to pick up the mess, and then you can just toss it in the washing machine, and it’ll be as good as new.

Shop kitchen faucet mats today at Amazon and Walmart and keep your countertops dry !

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July 13, 2024

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Take a few minutes to read the Bible verses listed and ask the Holy Spirit to lead you in how this verse applies to you this week.

Memory Verse

Psalm 119:105

Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.

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Before bed, I follow the same routine: wash my face, brush my teeth, put on my pajamas, and turn on the bathroom night light. I like a little light to find my way in the middle of the night. Do you keep a nightlight on when you go to bed? Do you have a habit of making sure it’s on every night before you sleep?

Psalm 119:105 says that God’s Word is a lamp for your feet. The psalmist says that God’s Word, the Bible, is a guide for your life. And just as you need to turn on that light every night before bed, so also you need to spend time reading the Bible and talking to God by praying every day. Think about God and Daniel’s relationship. Daniel spent time with God daily through prayer. When things got very hard, and he had tough choices (a trip to the lion’s den!), Daniel was confident in God's plan for his life ( Daniel 6 ). Having alone time with God each day will help your relationship with him grow.

What does personal devotion look like?

1. If possible, find a Bible of your very own that is at a level that you can read.

2. Spend time each day talking to God in prayer.

3. Devotional books can also help you dig further into God’s Word.

4. Websites like Kids Corner have Bible stories and devotions to read and listen to.

Make devotions a habit. Pick a time and try to be consistent. Before bed is an excellent time for this, but it can be anytime during the day. Spending time with God’s Word and in prayer is the lamp for your path you need!

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